Almost simultaneously I had two follow-on thoughts:
- Most of my days are consumed with almost mindless routine.
- In order to have a day that isn't wasted, I will have to find something memorable in the sea of routine days. At least for some moment during the day, I will have to be conscious of something that is memorable.
I have to admit, I had this sinking feeling that many years of my life must have been wasted with the same routine. Get up, bathe, brush my teeth, do my make-up, stretch, make coffee, make oatmeal, race out the door so I am not late. Once I get to work, there is another routine. At 7:30 I boot up the computer. While that is happening, take my lunch to the refrigerator and maybe go to the restroom. Then settle in to answer dozens of emails before I start into back-to-back meetings. You get the point. My whole day is that way. Somewhere around 5:30, I sink into my chair and think that I really ought to do some creative work, but usually that is dismissed because I am too tired to be creative.
There are exceptional days. In fact this has been an exceptional week. On Tuesday, I received an award for a piece of change management work of which I am very proud--three years of focus...and someone noticed. Wednesday was annual performance review time, and for the first time in five years, I felt like someone actually noticed my work. (Could it be because of the award I received the day before?) On Thursday, my favorite teammate--and maybe my best-ever co-worker--left our organization to take a different job. Friday my retina specialist reported that the impact of my surgery 15 months later has been sustained. I also received an apology that meant a lot. Today I had lunch with a friend, and we talked a lot. Then, I started cleaning off my desk--now that is an endeavor worth remembering.
The funny thing about this exceptional week is that when I started to write this, I thought, "I can't even remember yesterday, except that I know I didn't stop." Then I focused on each day and discovered it had been a week of pretty memorable days. I think that in order to have memories we have to focus our intention on giving attention to what is memorable. I have to choose to make a memory. Without this thought, I might have let this week slip by like so many others--lots of wasted days.
It also occurs to me that I might even mix up the routine a little bit and create so memories.
So, tomorrow, I will choose a memory. Monday I will choose a memory. In the process, I will assure that my life is not wasted, but instead is rich with memories.
Many years ago I saw an interview with Jeff Bezos the creator of Amazon. He said that everyday he takes a picture that represents a moment for that day. Every since then, I daily STOP whenever I feel called ot...I take a picture of something that causes me to BE with the present moment. I put it as my screen saver. Then I release it for my next day's moment.
ReplyDeleteI love it! Even taking a mental picture focuses our attention on the intention.
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