- Make time to do the things you love and love what you do
- This is the day the Lord hath made; rejoice and be glad in it.
- Be vulnerable
By contrast, if I am willing to be vulnerable, I'll risk confronting things, people, and circumstances in my life that keep me from doing the things I love. Then I will be joyful.
Finally, if I make time for the things I love and love what I do, the bubble of God's love will provide the security to be vulnerable. I will most certainly be grateful and joyful.
So, slow down, Kay. Just be. Do what you love. Rejoice. Be vulnerable.
I am taking baby steps. I left work at 5 p.m. tonight even though my colleague who usually works late, and I choose to let me feel guilty, really wanted to talk about a project. I felt quite vulnerable making the choice, but I have to say that the building didn't quake because I left on time. She didn't protest even a whimper. I scheduled time tomorrow evening to talk with her, an evening when I have an extra hour to kill between work and a dance class. I will love working with her; she's great. I will love the dance class.
I had an extra two hours. I've done several things this evening that I at least enjoy, even if they aren't quite in the "love to do" category. I had leftovers from a meal out, but I took time to artfully arrange them on the plate and make a special labor-intensive salad. That I loved doing.
I've had some paperwork to complete a certification I started about six weeks ago. I've been putting off doing it. I just didn't think I could add one more thing to my plate. When I emailed the instructor that I needed to put it off for a while (being vulnerable,) she was relieved because she is over-taxed.
I really wonder how many times when I've pushed myself to near-exhaustion that I've pushed others as well. At the very least, my pushing back probably wouldn't have been a concern.
Even if any of the lessons will lead to the other two, I have a hunch that "be vulnerable" may actually be the easiest to bring to consciousness. I am not sure why, but I think that in any given situation, if I ask myself, "What will make me the most vulnerable?" that I will not fail--will not fail to be human. I will finally feel secure in abandoning superwoman. Sigh. What a relief just to say that!
In the spirit of full disclosure, I am not sure that I've ever totally mastered one of my lessons during a single year. I have always made progress. The way it has usually happened has been that sometime down the line, a year, two years, or five years, I will suddenly realize that I am doing the very thing that I'd committed to mastering. Once we set an intention, we unleash a powerful force to support our desires. Then acting in accordance with that choice incrementally carries us toward that intention.
I am unequivocal about choosing to open my heart, find intimacy, and create connection. I will master these lessons--one day at a time.
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