"What are your intentions?" is the question it had for me. Ah.
Suddenly, the floodgates opened to all those things that I've been saying I really want to do but don't have time. While cleaning my very cluttered desk might have been one of them, that is a "should," not a "really want." What is the difference? A "should" is something that comes from outside of me. I "should" clean my desk so if someone comes to visit, they won't think I'm a slob. (Probably wouldn't happen anyway because generally I am a neatnik except at my desk.) The cluttered desk only bothers me when I start looking for something that I can't find, and amazingly, most of the time I am able to find things.
A "really want" is something that I want in my heart. A "really want" is something I really yearn for. When I started writing this blog, it was because writing again was a "really want" for me. I felt like part of my soul was being ripped from me every day I didn't write. When I started writing this blog, I almost immediately experienced deep peace and satisfaction. I truly cannot explain how wonderful it has been for me.
What are my "really wants" right now? Three things came immediately:
- Take better care of my body. Start exercising regularly again and get rid of sugar which really has negative effects on me. For over 25 years, I exercised almost every day, and I felt great. However, in the craziness of my life in recent years, I acted different priorities than what I know in my heart. I am going to start acting on what I know to be true for me: exercising regularly makes me feel great. And, the sugar...I give it up every year at Lent and really notice the difference how much better I feel, but my sweet tooth never takes long to lure me back. I know--truly know--that I am happier and more peaceful without it.
- Meditate every day--really meditate for a full 20 minutes. When my life was working better, exercise and meditation were rituals. They were the centerpieces around which I fit my life instead of vice versa.
- E-publish at least The Game Called Life. I started to do this a few months ago and the word document had totally gone missing from my computer. I can't find it anywhere--on my computer, on memory sticks, or on my back up hard drive. I am going to put it in my computer again (and back it up several places!) I sense that I really need to be up close and personal with this book again. Every time I read it, I am impacted by it. I think it is time to really have a relationship with it. If the government shutdown continues, I have a couple other books I've been wanting to get out there. Who knows? By the end of the furlough, I may have a whole library out there.
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